I haven’t been to Oneness University
since June 2010, and it was now mid November 2011, so I’ve been away for a long
time. When I arrived in the campus – or, more precisely, in the meditation hall
where we have classes – the first thing I noticed was how the energy has
changed. It seemed the energy was much higher now, compared to the last time I
was here. Why do I say that? Because even though I was translating and using my
mind all the time, I still felt something from looking at Bhagavan’s srimulthi
on the alter…it was as if Amma and Bhagavan were smiling at me from the
srimulthi. I’ve never felt this way before.
It was however challenging to come in the
process in the 3rd week. The whole group has been “worked” intensely
for 2 weeks now, and there we were, suddenly, and I had to “fight” to get a
seat in the front because all the seating arrangement has been made. People
have been laying down their mats in the same spots for 2 weeks and now they don’t
want to move. But I just had to sit in the front because I have to see the
dasaji when I translate, so that when I don’t understand something I can react
in a timely manner. This was the first time I ever have to fight for my seat as
a translator. Also since we were not the biggest in number (usually the Chinese
group has the most people, but not this time), I had to translate using the
simultaneous translation gear (the mini mic and headsets). Now prior to coming
I already got a cold and I was coughing from time to time. But I do turn away
from the mic when I knew I was gonna cough.
Just before coming down to India, I came
down with a cold – I thought it was a cold in the beginning. I even went to see
a doctor, thinking I cannot be having a cold and translate at the same time,
better just get myself back in shape using whatever method. However, the
medicine I got from the doctor didn’t work at all. Not only that, my symptoms
got worse, I was coughing so badly…I went to another doctor who specializes in
ears/throat, and I was slightly better just before I was leaving for India.
One night when I was coughing from my
sleep, I got up and started to meditate on why I had this symptom right now. I
got an insight: this was not a cold. This was my body releasing negative karma
associated with Dad. “With Dad?” I was wondering. Then I realized that because I
was staying with him for 1 or 2 weeks sometime before, and during that time I constantly
complained about his “bad habits”, that I accumulated some negative karma with
the words I have spoken. So now, I got this “throat problem”…”Oh my God! I
should be happy about this.” I thought. I didn’t know there was more surprises
waiting for me.
Now looking back, my “process” started way
before I even got to India.
On the plane, I was sitting next to a young woman who is in our group, a
participant in the Deepening. Although I know many Oneness Blessing Givers in Taiwan, being a
translator and all, I didn’t know her. She took out a book that I also possess
in my collection – the only book on Ramana Marhashi in Taiwan, and put
it in the pouch in front of her seat. So I started talking to her. Very soon we
realized we have met “on-line” already and we both have heard of each other.
She then asked me about my “cold”. I
explained to her what it was. She then said she can help me, or, the “spirit”
inside her can help me, and suddenly her voice changed to that of a little girl’s.
“Yes, yes, the energy is stuck here…” I was amazed. She asked me if I want to
be helped by the spirit (her name is called “LL”). I said sure, why not. She said
OK, but her nails are a little too long (not the spirit’s but hers), and she
had to first cut them. Before I could say anything, she took out a nail clipper
from her bag (it seems to contain everything) and started clipping away. I was
even more amazed. I was thinking: “I thought it’s not allowed to bring this on
the planes? Did they change the rules?” Again, before I could ask her about how
she managed to bring it, she has finished cutting her nails and now ready to “treat”
me.
Before she put her hands on me, she first
told me that because of the way we are sitting it is not possible to work on
all the areas that needs to be treated, so she will work on me again in Singapore
airport when we transit. I said OK. Then it started. Even till this day I am
amazed at how this little woman could gather such strength to cause me so much
pain…physically. Now I realize it was like a “prelude” to what was coming!
She was massaging with full strength my shoulders
and working on my meridians. It was very painful, because, obviously, the
energy was “stuck”. I think all the medication that I took probably didn’t help
in this regard either. She did work on me more in the airport while we were
waiting for the next flight. It was even more painful cause now she has “full
access” to my back. We were an odd sight because she was speaking in child-like
voices and I was screaming out of pain…
She told me before we boarded the second
plane that I would feel much better once we arrive in campus. I did feel
somewhat better, but I was still coughing. What’s even more surprising is that
it turns out a lot of people in the course (the people who have been there for
2 weeks) are also sneezing and coughing…perhaps everyone was releasing negative
karma?
Now a little bit about the coordinator who
asked me to translate for her group this time. I don’t usually work with her,
because the I’ve worked with/for her before and the experience was not that
great. One time she was scolding me for half an hour in the dorm room and told
all the other staff not to talk to me for the entire process.
So why did I say yes when she asked me this
time? Well, I always feel like we should give people a new chance, since
everyone and everything is changing constantly. And since she was willing to
ask me, I thought maybe she also felt differently now. Of course we all want to
co-exist harmoniously, at least that’s what I believe. Also the timing was just
perfect, so I took it as a sign that Bhagavan is giving me this opportunity to
go back to Golden City (Oneness
University). Even though
the translation fee is much lower than the fee I was paid in 2010 and what I
normally charge, but because I would not have to pay for my own flight, I still
save a lot going with the group as a translator. I have also arranged that I
will stay and participate for the Deepening in December, after the group
leaves.
On the second day of the Deepening (second
day of 3rd week), in the afternoon, the group leader Cindy told me
that the coordinator wants to talk to me on the phone (she didn’t come with us,
she said Deepening was too tiring for her so she sent her staff Cindy to help
with the group). I was surprised. On the phone she was saying someone
complained to her that how come the Japanese translator (using the mic) spoke
for such a long time, while my translation was always much shorter? I was
speechless. Actually the Japanese translator was even speaking when the dasaji
was not. But what does that have to do with me or our group?! Then she said
that I was coughing into the mic and it was very hard on their ears. I told her
it was not me. I always turn the mic away but I have no control over the person
sitting next to me coughing! Anyway it was not a very pleasant phone
conversation because I felt there was an absence of trust. This was not the
first time I translated for her group and she should know better about the
quality of my translation, I thought.
Physically, I got better after a few days,
the coughing stopped almost completely. However, my kundalini started
activating, even though at the time I didn’t know it was that. I thought it was
because I was too tired – one day after the morning class was over and we broke
for lunch, I was lying on the floor as everybody else in shavassan. After I don’t
know how long, I found that I could not move my lower body! My lower body was
like a pile of mud on the floor, that was my feeling! But today we started to
go to Oneness Temple in the afternoons and I was
supposed to go take the buses soon…but I couldn’t move! I started to panic.
Some participants from Hong Kong saw me (they
are also listening to my translation) and I asked them for help and to give me
Deeksha. It took 2 people giving me Deeksha to make me fully “recover”.
The second Deeksha was actually very funny.
It was a young girl from Shanghai
that gave me Deeksha, and we were in the Dining Hall (I think they first helped
me to Dining Hall, then they gave me Deeksha there). She was standing in front
of me and I was sitting. When she gave me Deeksha, it was as if she was receiving
Deeksha! Her whole body started trembling. Her hands moved from my head to my
hands, and when she moved her hands, different parts of her body started
shaking, and for me it was like we were one entity. We were both getting
charged, and since I had to have that much energy come in to get me “back”, she
received that much energy! At one point we were both holding hands and shaking
and laughing! It was quite an experience. After this Deeksha I gained full
control of my legs again and I walked to the bus myself.
I thought that was it. I didn’t expect it
to happen again the next day. And this time, there was nobody around…
